Saturday, December 27, 2008

Weight Loss??

I originally started this blog waaaaaaay back in 2003 as an incentive to lose weight. I didn't follow through on blogging and found myself gaining about 23 lbs in the last 5 years. I really want to lose 50-60 lbs but just don't have the determination! What in the heck is wrong with me? I had gastric bypass surgery almost 8 yrs ago, lost down to 170 and was extremely comfortable in a size 12, down from a size 26. I was a gym rat, I monitored what I ate, and then little by little, bite by bite, I wandered into the forbidden garden once again. Cookies, teeny tiny bites at first, now can eat several at once. I can't drink milk, can't eat beef, but I love chicken and turkey.

I know what I'm supposed to eat and to be quite honest, I fill up rather quickly when I eat what I'm supposed to...chicken breast with few veggies/small salad. I don't drink with my meals. But my doc said that the body will try to go back to it's previous state, it starts to absorb more calories. Since I eat things I shouldn't like slider foods (chips,cookies, crackers) and I get no exercise at all, my body absorbs all calories and the weight has crept back up.

20 years ago, I maintained 222 lbs for years and years, then my weight jumped up to 285 in about 10 years. For some reason my body wants to be at 222, which is what I weighed for several years. When I was at 215 I dropped down to 203 and my daughter just couldn't understand when I prayed for "JUST 4 lbs"...I so desperately wanted to see 100's again. Nope, went from 203 to 218, then 228, and now at 222 for about 7 months or so.

I've been laid up with this broken ankle since 12/10 and I was being very careful, eating very little because now I REALLY don't get any exercise, I have made the sofa recliner my "home" since then. As I have felt better and gotten stronger, I have started eating a little more, my appetite is greater now, and I hobble on my crutches to the kitchen and bring bite size chocolates in my pockets! I tell you, once an overeater, always an overeater! I really am trying to make wise food choices! My daughter goes back to work on Jan 5th, and while she's gone I have her pack a thermos bag for me with string cheese, boiled eggs, smoked turkey.

I know I can beat this! My pledge to myself for 2009 is to reach 199 by this time next steps, baby steps, one small bite at a time.

I must stay accountable here, just for myself. I have to write it down so I can see progress. I CAN DO IT!


  1. Sounds like you have a plan!! I agree with you, once an overeater, always an overeater! I am headed back to WW tomorrow. We have got to keep trying. I have lost a total of 30 lbs. (gained 14 -- was at 44) in 2008. I was down about that until I realized....if I lost 30 lbs per year, it wouldn't take very long to get this weight off. So, I am not setting a "date" or a "I have to lose "X" amount by "X" date"....I am just going to say I want to lose this year! Baby steps as you said. We are in this together!

    Good luck on your healing! When will you go back to work? I know the sitting there and doing nothing must be making you crazy!

  2. The question over what happens when the snow melts? Shit sliding mayhem. If it gradually melts it is pretty bad but there is always an end in sight. If it melts then freezes- ice skating disaster for person and car alike. As you asked, if it warmed up suddenly it would all melt except the huge mountains, like the ten foot heaping hulk in our front yard. The hills and mountains of piled snow take a couple of weeks of warmer weather to melt. When it first starts to get above freezing the snow gets heavier and compacts and the mountains and heaps turn harder. With the melting snow we have to start to move the piles into the back or front yard away from the foundation and basement windows because it will end up leaking into the basements. I think the last recorded flooding in the house we are in was 1996ish and it was because of record snow fall. We are probably in for a pretty tough time being that "winter" just started officially eleven days ago and our hardest months tend to be late January and February.

    As for your post... I really think you have set a reachable and moderate goal for yourself. I will be following along and routing for you the whole way! You CAN do it!

  3. you are going the right way about it, baby steps, small consistent steps and keeping track of what you eat and posting for accountability; all of us overeaters struggle with this but we don't want food to get the best of us, we want to just use it to give our body what it needs to work and work efficiently; finding that perfect balance sometimes is hard to do

    good luck!


  4. I think that posting your progress will give you great motivation. Good luck :o)

  5. Estela, We'll do this together! It is a struggle no matter how you look at it. My goal is to be down 30 lbs by my graduation. Hopefully, I will graduate, lol. This is going to be a tough class for me next go round, it is my final Math course. However, if I am working my brain this hard, I want to make sure the rest of my parts are staying in sync too. So, I'm going to really try hard to get er done! God Bless!

  6. I am trying to get back into the mindset also. I am not exercising at all and eating all the wrong foods. I seem to spend all winter with some crud or other and just need to motivate.

  7. Yes baby steps is my motto for this year!
    stopping by to wish you a happy new year!